Hello Everyone. I hope you all are having a Fantastic Friday! For those of you that are following my journey you may have noticed that I did not post a Weigh In Wednesday Video. My aim with this blog is to be totally transparent.
So, here it goes. Last week after losing almost 15 pounds in a week I was on cloud 9. I was so excited to see the numbers go down. On Thursday, when the scale went up 4 pounds although, I know why the scale went up (monthly water weight gain) seeing those numbers creep back up really bothered me.
In previous entries before ,I talked about how I stopped and started low carb eating off and on last year. One of the reasons that I stopped was because each time that I started and saw the monthly weight gain on the scale I would get discouraged and stop. This time, I had to push the urge to quit out of the way and when I tell you it was not easy please trust me, it was not.
Last Wednesday was rough. As a single woman, that lives away from home without many friends at times I find myself feeling lonely. For the most part, recently I have been able to work through my feelings of loneliness but on Valentine’s Day it was SUPER ROUGH. Holidays are very difficult for me but there is nothing like holidays meant for lovers that smack me in the face with an extra reminder that I don’t have a mate. Normally, on Valentine’s Day, I take my children out to eat and buy them chocolates. But this year, since my daughter and I had plans to see Black Panther on Friday I opted to not go out this time on Valentine’s Day.
In addition to it being Valentine’s Day, I got a response back about a job that I had been waiting to hear from. Let us just say that it wasn’t the response I was hoping for. I went through a flurry of emotions. At one point, I wanted to eat through 2 bags of sugar free candy that I had and a jar of pickles because I was so upset about the job. I know right, what a weird combination. In the end, I won against the urge because I realized that whatever GOD intends for me to have it will be mine. That job seemed like it would have been perfect for me but GOD has other plans. I have to believe that and stand on the fact that GOD is not going to hold any good thing from me.
The bright part of my day on Wednesday was getting on that scale and seeing the pounds that I had lost. Then the next day, to get on the scale and seeing those extra pounds was a lot to handle.
On Friday, My daughter and I went to go see Black Panther. If you have not gone to see the movie I encourage you to go see it. It is one of the best movies that I have ever seen in my life. It actually might even be the best movie that I have seen.
We went out to eat and I had some low carb friendly snacks as well. I went off track on my eating by eating more carbs than I normally do but I still kept things pretty low carb.
The next day it was the same as far as going over my normal grams in carbs. Let me just say that with the monthly weight gain, comes a ravenous appetite . It can be easy for a woman to want to eat everything in sight. I allowed myself to increase carbs for two days to combat my increased appetite but still kept it low carb. I was definitely sure not to eat anything on the do not eat list.
On Sunday, I went back to my 20-25 carb restriction and have been on track since then. The numbers on the scale are still up but I am hopeful that by next week I will be where I need to be.
This week instead of doing a Weigh In Wednesday, I decided on Face The Scale Friday. Face The Scale Friday for me is about seeing a number on the scale that you aren’t the happiest with but you still face the scale. In the past, this is a time I would have gotten sad about what the numbers on the scale said and I would have given up. This time around, there is no giving up. I MUST keep going.
There is an entire life out there that I am waiting to live once this weight is shed. I will continue to be present in each moment and be thankful for each minute that I have now. But, I have to be real about my imitations. There are a lot of things that I can’t do at this size. I have to keep my eye on the prize. The prize is me being a healthy size so, that I am able to do all the things that I have ever wanted to do and more. I know only I can make that happen which is why, I can’t get caught up on the numbers on the scale. Instead, I will focus and celebrate the days that I get it right!
As always, thank you for spending this time with me!
Face The Scale Friday, Weigh In #3