Hello All!! Thank you so much for spending this moment with me!!
I recently hit a milestone in my journey and wanted to share it all with you!
For the first time in 2 years I am under 350 pounds. For many years my weight held steady at 350, and I hardly went over that number. 350 is a large number but I used to say to myself, “At least I am not 400 pounds and I am only 51 pounds away from being under 300.” But, I never stayed consistent enough to put in the work needed to lose the weight.
In 2016, I found myself using food to work through my emotions and became a vending machine junkie. I cringe to think about all the money I spent at the vending machine at my job at the time. I am sure that it is easily in the high hundreds or even thousands. I know for sure the combination of the vending machine and eating fast food everyday cost me thousands.
By eating the vending machine food and eating fast food everyday I went from 350 to my highest of 404 last year.
404, typing those numbers is very painful. I sometimes get so upset over the fact that I really let things get that far. I wish that when I was 350, that I had gotten serious about my weight instead of getting heavier. But, I didn’t. I try not to beat myself up but it is so hard.
I realize that I had to get up to 404 pounds and in addition to that I had to be taken all the way down to the bottom of the pit for me to get serious about my weight.
Being in the pit caused me to scratch at the surface. I had to take a long hard look in the mirror at Gabrielle. I had to be real about who I was and what I allowed myself to be reduced to.
It wasn’t pretty and it was hard to force myself to do the work needed but I pushed myself because the lightbulb finally went off in my head.
NO ONE is going to save me and no one is going to show up to save me. Not my Father, my Brothers, my Sister (although, she is phenomenal support), not my Children, not my Aunts and Uncles, Cousins, Friends, nor my Future Husband (Whoever or wherever he is).
I am the ONLY ONE that can save me. Also, it isn’t anyone’s job to do it but mine.
I have to take care of ME! I have to put me FIRST. I have to stop pouring all this love I have into other people and instead pour it into MYSELF.
I promised myself that 2018 was going to be the year that I focus on Gabrielle controlled things. I am thankful that when it comes to my weight loss that I am doing exactly that.
My new weight is:
348.2 is still very far from my goal BUT I am going to celebrate it because it is 55 pounds less than my highest weight of 404. It is 39 pounds less than my restart of 387. Most importantly, I am 49 pounds from being out of the 300s FOREVER! I am FINALLY doing the work needed to leave the 300s and to go lower than that!
Shout out to the ladies that are joining me in the 30 Day Challenge you all have been awesome!
Since starting the challenge I have lost 12.4 pounds! My goal was to lose 15 and I am less than 3 pounds away from that goal with 13 Days still left on the clock! I am super excited to see how much more I can lose in 13 Days!
Also, thank you all for being part of this!