Hello All! Thank you so much for spending this moment with me.
Recently, I found myself facing multiple challenges that sent me over the edge emotionally and my eating plan has been greatly impacted.
My blog and journey isn’t just about my weight loss but about multiple things that I deal with in my life. My goal with my blog is to always be real and transparent. I don’t want to just share good moments with you all but all the moments that pertain to my journey of uncovering and being the Gabrielle that GOD called me to be.
After my May 7th weigh in, I was really proud of myself and super pumped about reaching my goal of losing 50 pounds in 3 months. At the same time, I was dealing with a lot of other issues. These issues overwhelmed me and caused me to fall of.
My plan was to do the May walking challenge with Black Women Losing and also I started a 21 Day Daniel Fast. But those plans went right out the window.
Early this month, my one of my best friends lost her Mother. Her mother got sick late last year and never recovered. My best friend and I have been friends for over 16 years and I don’t ever really remember a time that her Mother was sick. When she got sick, I thought for sure that she would bounce back and get back to herself but she didn’t.
From my own experience of losing my Mother, I know how devastating it can be. When I lost my Mother, my best friend dropped everything to come be with me. She held my hand when I cried. She talked me off the ledge multiple times when I was in intense pain from my Mother being here one day and gone the next.
Unfortunately due to my finances not being the best, I was not able to be there for her like she was there for me. The biggest downside to being so far away from home is the fact that expensive air fares can keep you separated from the ones you love. I know that she knows how much I wish I could have been there but it doesn’t stop me from feeling guilty for not being there.
My brother is getting married and once again I don’t have the funds to travel back home. I would like to be there but things are looking like I won’t be able to go. It is really upsetting to me because I missed my oldest brother’s wedding and would like to make this one. Of course, I am going to send him a gift card but it isn’t the same as being there. I hope he understands.
My son currently lives away from home and Mother’s Day was super hard without my son being home. Mother’s Day is already hard because my Mother is gone but my son not being home really made it harder than I thought it would be. The good thing is that he is home for the Summer. I am so happy that he is home. Having both of my children home together makes me feel whole. I will be writing a post soon about him living away from home. Be on the look out for that.
For those that follow my blog you all know that I haven’t worked in almost a year. I have been looking aggressively for a position in the field that I love but have not been successful as of yet. These thank you, but no thank you emails are killing my spirit.
My prayer is to find a job that I love, in the field that I love that pays enough so, that I can more than support my children and myself. I currently have in over 10 applications in this field.
I am praying that in the next month GOD pours this blessing down upon me. If you are a praying person or know how to send out positive vibrations I ask that you join me. I know that GOD can and will do this for me but being in the midst definitely causes intense worry and anxiety. I am trying to stay positive and but things can definitely get overwhelming.
The combination of these things took me over the edge and caused me to fall off track with my Daniel Fast, not do the walking challenge and then eventually stop eating Low Carb/Keto all together.
I know that I really need to work on not allowing my emotions and situations overwhelm me. I say this all the time but really have to work on it.
Staying on track with Low Carb/Keto can and WILL help me lose this weight. Being overweight keeps me in bondage and I MUST break this bondage of obesity. Not only that, I MUST win against this generational curse for myself and my children.
The good thing about this is that I serve an awesome GOD. Right now in my kitchen, I have everything that I need to get back on track. I also have other tools available to me as well. In this journey of releasing this weight, I know that this may not be the last time that I fall down or get off track.
But, I do know that the most important thing that matters is that this time around each time I fall down that I get back up!!!
In the next few days, my main focus is to REGROUP. Regrouping will consist of getting my kitchen reorganized, a grocery trip, and as well meal prepping. I will also be posting a regroup starting weight as well. My aim is to be on track by Saturday.
I know that I can do this and I am so thankful that GOD has blessed me in a way that allows me to do get back on track like I need to be.
I want to thank you all for being part of this journey.